Small Shiny Object of a Plan

All systems go for The Franchise.

So, what next? Review and sign the franchise contract, finalize the location choice, negotiate a lease, find a contractor for the build-out that is acceptable to the Mothership, order equipment, order supplies, hire workers, go to training, host an opening party . . . (and I am failing to list a million little steps along the way, I am sure).

And, honestly, none of this seems daunting at all. Honestly. What is the worst that can happen - the bank takes away all of the family's assets. We'll still have each other, I'm assuming. Okay, it does make me throw-up a little in my mouth and get a bit dizzy when I think of what is on the line.

But the other 99% of the time, it just feels right, it's fun and I can't wait for each next step. When I first told my son, the conversation went like this: "Honey, we're going to open a dessert franchise!" Deer in headlights. "BUT YOU'RE AN ATTORNEY." When I explained to him that a mom with a dessert franchise will pretty much make him the king of the fourth grade, he eased up a bit. This is probably not true, of course, because everyone in the class is a vegetarian and allergic to everything and will only eat organic - but still.

Ever since the email I sent my husband in January (Maybe now is a good time to look at opening that franchise), the whole thing has just seemed right. All my life I've chosen the path that has seemed the most responsible, the one with the most (presumed) likelihood of me being able to take care of myself and my son, and the one that seemed like I was making a real difference to the people I served.

But now, all those things that my head was telling me that I should be doing, I'm just ignoring. I'm simply following a small shiny object of instinct because it feels good. (My husband may have just had a heart attack hearing it put that way.) I'm having one heck of a good time. For the first time in eons and eons, I don't feel tired. Oh, don't get me wrong, I could have a margarita and a nap. But I pretty much feel like I am living right now.